conspiracy of lemurs
“washed out family of primates, on a giant mat of vegetation, in the middle of a cyclone”
rafted / rafting
retrace the steps

age of acquisition
unitarian / utilitarian
“seriousness imbalance“
“the powerplay of nuh-uhn“

scared, but v willing
on good authority
fady
lemurs
diurnal
endemic
sham cantaloupe
strepsirrhini
sniff around until you find treasure
klinotaxis and smelling
simultaneus SSRI and alcohol withdrawl
learn french? danish? spanish?
tinnitus
external processing
at this hour
remember the body
tenet
fear has rarely stopped me
who in here has found a god they believe?

plausible
roiling
wilding
smirk
coda
frass

liturgical
spades
cardboard

subterfuge
consensus (building)
sully
repair
wisdom
invoke

antlers
gnat
mottephobia
neglect
negligee
surveyed
host
fed
honey
cemetery
turtle
desert
placation

flattened
adhesive

shorthand
apochraful
Phillum fi Lum
exuberance
cad
runaround
ledger
charismatic
(Minder, finder, grinder)
waterfowl

palatial
cyanide
almonds
sand
aligned
beach
Copycat
protest
case
uncertainty
retire
cruise
bacon
daydream
lookalike
casino
backseat

raincheck
offers
caregiving
elder
powerless
tenant
expulsion
homecoming

commissary
composure

cistern
metastasizing
callback
analyst
adjacent

disappropiation (necrowriting)
aptitude
tacit
paralytic
demerara
wallet
abolitionists

found
karma
argosy
rife
revered
communality
rhizomatic
pig
circumstances
mandates

hoist
views
weary
deplete
nap

tarsiers
seep
psychopomp
laridum (laridi)
fattened

impel
ponce
ferryman

contours
dose
blueprints
reviewing
bone
coincidence

repellant
heat
light
deplete
responsive
stasis
burger
pitch
posturing

undisciplined
soiled
research
emphatic

baton
treasure
pretzeled
wholesome
pacts

audit
trailer
afford
canopy
guest
annex
submission
skip
sidereal

edging
precious
origins
exploratory

propulsive
amalgamation
fathom
boring
enter

estuary
demure
surmised
disparaging
hysteria

encouraged
intern
camel toe

thigh
opposed
omitted
ill-aligned
obstinate
dubious

dysphoric
mourning
bodily

drill
landscape
luteal
sunken
germplasm
restorative
the wall of the body

cunning
darkroom
played
rerouting
lounge
kip
indulgent

stealth
inherited

indelible
potency
consistent
moment
window

poignant
steadfast
theory

bail
repair
retention
attraction

sift
separate
direction
pump

struggle
pace
pedicure
held

resilience
abandon
attempt

secret
peach
plum
double-dip
generative
lent

limerence
degradation
derecho
gossip
leviathan
clockwork
dimple
erudition

bond
milestone
compensation

talented
informative
empanadas
allay
incessant
easing
alluring
maestro

delayed
bandwidth
denial
extension
overcommitting
bounds

rehoming
commodity
mouths
fascia
match
bump
ick
illumination
secrecy
wasteful
pressed
youth
patience
volunteer

hungover
remedies
trans
vitrify
monster
pings
dollars
pool
sext
immediacy
urgency
stop
pursuit

perspicaciousness
acumen
shove
refusals
fictive
relational
obstinate
fabulation
rupture
wayward
ungovernable
foibles
reductive
stimulated
meander
daffodil

adopt
photophobia
diuretic
chin-up
saliance
brunt
ennui
bioethicists
restarting circularity
NRP
science fiction

catalyst
distinguished only by their unhappiness

- waiting for the bus and noticing a neighbor swaps out the stain glass piece in their front window periodically.
- lean to
- “I keep on pressing my luck”
- revisit your promises
- internal dialogue externally
- faintly adorned — only the shoes shining, subtle everywhere else
- Aged by antics
- Quality control
- “Breaking bad, have you watched it?”
- poor spirited
- “A healthy 58.”
- respecting the dead, slowing for the funeral procession, acknowledging the wintered fade of the teddy bear and turning the patron bottle back on its base, collecting the dried petals blown about and tucking them into the open seam of the bear bound to the light pole. thanking all who may have contributed to the persimmon by holding it against my lips a little longer before that first bite.

- turmeric forward
- haptic
- “have you ever seen a seahorse give birth?”
- unflappable dog
- the way a deck of cards falls out of the dryer — crumbled waded blanks
- the body knows
- embarrassingly corny
- “fuckable”
- loungey titties
- jerrycan
- elasticity
- desperate charisma, nearly convincing

-“bro, I just be enjoying. I ain’t got all the facts.”
- battery
- speculative
- suction
- what’s it mean to want
- an unexpected queer icon with a light lisp
- is it flickable?
- motivationless
- all these flimsy rules, routinely made and broken
- “knocking the clocks off the walls.”
- “everything changes when you’re looking at it”
- i want to give the mechanic flowers, but I don’t want to embarrass him in the shop
- “we feel so lonely among these friends”
- “i will never ask a thing of you that doesn’t feel good”
- hijacked
- meniscus
- “the pothole has levels”
- rearing
- a reptilian-mammilian love mystery
- no turtles on the porch, no flags in the bed
- “y’all can see that in teeth now” (trauma)
- package

- moms
- two-fisted tile acquisition
- family group chat idiosyncrasies
- listing too many contemporaries
- unheard
- I pull my headphones off to hear the muffled protest out front; everyone is yelling or honking or chanting or jeering; I think of what sign i might put in the window as acknowledgement—one clear enough but also ambiguous—I think about who left early and which why dangles beside them.
- tone policing advocate emails
- wanting a thank you
- grants
- standard operating procedure
- “yes, but those kids not coming to my house”
- nodding at my neighbor’s joke
- prevail
- “ya, you’ve got that glow about you.”
- this corner of the bar must be sanitized immediately

- windblown
- “maybe buried inside this capitalist fantasy are somehow the seeds of its opposite— hidden there somewhere within the design” (monopoly game)
- moisturize the scab
- always grateful for the invitation
- father figure
- join the bears on the other end of the bar
- purchasing
- serenade
- disciplined

- attachment
- egregious oversight
- simp
- safe routes
- hurricane
- save it for next Friday
- Tijuana tote bag
- pivoting
- am I acting out because I haven’t seen my best friend in weeks?
- that was strikingly
- “realizing he couldn’t see her features in the dark, she pressed her smile against his lips, so he would know of it.” (hum)
- “— turn her to water.” (Hum)
- “good practice for death.” (Hum)
- unintentionally crossing paths with a handful of homies
- breaking up around the equinox
- that was strikingly reassuring for me
- practical guidance and affirmations

- compliance
- “moor yourselves in your bodies.”
- pillars (of fascisms)
- restoration
- nostalgia for a mythical past
- dominant group victimhood
- threatened by
- humiliation
- other mob members
- an ideology that rejects critical inquiry
- hamstrung
- mass d.a.r.v.o., but with groups instead of individuals
- hysteria
- solo
- exploratory, curiously
- the weekend
- tampopo

- red eye
- henge
- the relationship between time and memory; aging infinitely
- singing justin Bieber softly with the pedicurist; trading verses, each humming the musical solos
- warm towel
- “She gone be looking like twilight”
- journaling in the corner of the couch with a cat on either side
- turtle neck
- “there’s a potato for that”
- teratoma
- “there’s almost always hair”
- do I kiss you goodbye? do I want to?
- Eastern market
- bejeweled
- trojan
- spin the bottle
- in absence of inquiry, silence defines itself distinctly
- baby queer binds a peer
- gulp
- shadow
- straddle
- elasticity if memory
- book: ice henge
- time and memory relationship

- napping at the rest stop for over an hour
- amends
- shallow direction
- a man pretends to be a cop in the audio book and I think of the man in my life who did the same and got away with it, got away with throwing me to the ground, because he could. Because I wasn’t a woman in the way he wanted, but mostly because I didn’t listen, didn’t respect his imagined reality
- do I kiss you goodbye? do I want to
- shorty
- shed the sheets
- nuggets
- is either of you missing a set of keys
- making a full salad afterward— olives, feta, cucumbers, za’atar; cold mejhool date before bed
- firsts
- “nobody talks, everyone whispers”

- bronze
- outstanding
- flat stanley
- “80s, but less loud.”
- resilience
- “brownies and chocolate chips shouldn’t meet in the first round”
- bracket
- accepting help
- grief
- association
- is your interest in white women genuine or habitual?
- radically disagreeing and/or declining a reality that doesn’t suite the reality that is true/truth/genuine/real
- cheers
- cat jumps up on the dryer and stares at me on the toilet staring back
- ashtray
- discord

- the smallest of his four kids coughs into the elbow nook of his blue Nike sweatshirt — and I witness the way a father might bend around you protectively, the way a sister might stare annoyedly— each sibling a sleepy-eyed variation of the other beside them. The stroller, collapsed beneath the row of seats, slides some as the bus stops at a light.
- blot out
- closures
- “ok, if it doesn’t work, can we compost it? can we return it back to a valuable state? can we use it to serve the whole?” (Chani)
- toast
- leeks in the grilled cheese
- gay recognize gay
- My colleagues smiling and shouting “sour gummies” and “brownies” at me as I exit the elevator.
- phantom shin rubs in the cafe
- fooled
- “does she pull strings or does she recognize when her strings are being pulled?”
- fuse
- “illusion of invulnerability”
- substituting and still unsatiated
- lyrical running
- assertion
- tidying after hours

- reducing access / reduction
-this is about to break
- polite
- property
- bucked against the rules
- observe it from afar
- allowances and time
- what percentage of crashes in this state are hit and runs — or how they say vehicle fled the scene
- lucrative candyman
- The Planter, Robert Smalls
- take command of the ship
- its origins began as a joke
- “Where you go I go. Where you die I die.””It was either going to be freedom for them or death.”
- studied the gait
- farewell
- enlist
- cartel
- photo weary
- creamy crack

- trying to outrun the monster
- “for me, slowing down means giving in and possibly having the monster catch me. And the whole point is to out run the monster so it never catches me. Otherwise it could devour me”
- exhausted by the race
- facing it
- i will sometimes disappoint ppl I care about
- none of it is love in the way I think I need rn
- loser
- “You and THAT won’t work well together”
- drown
- hold tight
- “that way when I fall off my pedestal I sprain my ankle instead of break my neck.” (JJ)
- dunktanked, anyways
- is journey’s don’t stop believing a white spiritual?
- “an entrepreneurial amount” (JJ)
- “when you in jail you know all your numbers.”
- the expectation is corruption
- “saggy and sophisticated”
- ev charging
- “cars as a unit of measurement”
- city design inspired by Disneyland
- stool
- “the milk walk of shame”
- “so little left to lose”

- so often upset with gravity
- to be held
- car alarms at 2am
- follow the sun
- “there’s more than 1 way to bring the giant down”
- spaghetti out the window
- strategic filmography
- cultural log truck avoidance
- thc seltzers
- nori in the popcorn
- failed opportune pieing
- siblings
- incarceration

- i keep seeing the same bead in every dream
- battle plans for sky couch
- brown rounds
- isolating again
- laundry

- “no one hugs you harder than a bitch that hates you”
- miraculous geographical instinct
- this is the venue
- so many old white men in one room
- scheming with the homies; who will turn out who
- Atlantic City
- when you learn more about someone and want to never interact with them again
- fruit loops

- cladding
- Lawrence “Capp” Thomas (queer/train and bikes)
- “unexpectedly passed away yesterday”
- red eyed in the conference room
- men move on as if they are not stuck (too)
- my fiscal fortitude is weak
- taking meetings to take meetings
- “I’ll be walking out of meetings throughout the day”
- pasta and suicide stories from the day
- the mentor to homie pipeline
- never enough bread

- hernia
- warm brie
- air mail
- ditch
- purple garbage bin
- fly you out
- conference bound
- fam calls

-“skunk luck” (millie)
- congregation
- “your neighbor is your future”
- fiscal fortitude is weak
- “I love you because I love you because I can”
- berry bloom, bone cage
- cubed taters and cream
- ”abutted”
- oracles

- marshmallow fluff
- ain’t got the gumption no more
- the ministry of transportation
- “there fucking based and y’all know this”
- inflexibility
- fifty
- match making

- awake for a mere 4 hours..
- the dregs were enough
- oddly reminded about my interest in russians after watching Anora
- something about being direct, sure, kind, and loving through action and speech
- what ways have I learned to receive and give love that aren’t ways I wish to love any longer
- open door, collared cats

- “25 hour birthday” (chris)
- “did you die?” (ghosting)
- rereading/listening to tuck everlasting thinking someone should send Elon a copy- sure it’d make no difference but what if it did? Man in yellow. Thinking of Martyr’s dreams — thinking they are in my heart/head lately — the Toni Morrison / June Jordan poem start. What’s finding itself out?
- tuck everlasting
- “the tyranny of custom”
- clepsydra
- “Undercover other”